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By Rebecca St. James
Go and Sin no More
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its sad to think that they dont understand how many people they are affecting....its sad to think that they are so self involved that they think they are only doing it for them or for the viewing purposes and sometimes more...for others. its sad to think that they have no more self respect and appreciation for the body God gave them....that they are nothing more than an object...a tool to be used whenever its convenient for their viewers. why is it that they dont see the consequences? why is it that they dont understand theres more to them than that and that people can and will love them for who they truly are if they only were to be themselves...not try to impress anyone, or show off eveything, or even just for the purpose of them gauking at theirs bodies. it makes me want to cry the lack of self control that people, including myself, have. why can't we ust rely on God? Why can't it be so simple as to give it all to Him? answer- it is that simple. So why don't we embrace it? why don't we grasp the peace that God openly given to us....why do we make it so difficult on ourselves? human nature possibly. but i think its just because we want to feel like we have one part of our life that no one else can see. we want a part of our liife that's all ours and no one elses.....we want a secret...that is never revealed...we want to be in control. but oh what a paradox it is because when we try to take control of our own lives we are in the most ugly swamps we ever could imagine. i dont want to be down there. i want to be free of this burden of this guilt and shame. i want to be lifted by the blood of Jesus. I want to give him my all....and so...with all my heart.....here I go............ |
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| well here we are once more on a typical november day...accept its not at all! for instance im a midwesterner ok. so by nopw i expect it to be around the 40's temperature wise. well here i am in north carolina in a tank top! a fliipin tank yop! yeah thats right i said it! whats with the warm weather huh?! it was snowing here like a week ago. God has officially abandoned me haha just kidding. i suppose ill just have to get used to it. although i must say that the trees here are quite incredible the mountains are gorgeous and ive never seen anything more beautiful in my life. the redness is quite remarkable to say the least and because of the warmer weather here fall lasts a lot longer which is great but i miss the cold and the snow. well ill be back there soon enough yay! love love and peace my friends. muah!\ jae |
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| everytime..it seems everytime i think i can take control of my on life,God bluntly puts me in my place. Tonight something big happened. As always does when God is talking...and in response to the unfortunate chain of events that have just occured, i will sing and praise God for in only Him can I find strength. It seems as though in brokenness I find my purpose. I find my way back to Him. Oh lord do not turn away from me because I'm crying out to you and I need you now more than ever. Do not abandon me for the path in which i walk is dark and tainted. Lead me to your Light God. Catch me and carry me for I fear I can do nothing but stumble and fall on my own. Let me love and trust as you did. Let me forgive and show mercy as you did. Let me see them through your eyes......Amen. |
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| I can't believe my account didn't actually shut down. I could of sworn I shut this thing down a hundred times. Oh well Maybe since its' still here I should use it again aye? well heres and update...I live in North carolina going to school for Youth Ministry and Human Services...and my parents are moving to Iowa in late December. Oh how many stories I have to tell ah but alas that shall wait till later friends...farewell.... JAE's BACK!!! |
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